Find Me, J.S. Monroe - Ciska's Book Chest

*Disclaimer: I received a free copy of this book from the publisher *

Author: J.S. Monroe
Publisher: Mira Books
Pages: 400
Format: DRC
ISBN-10: 077833001X
ISBN-13: 9780778330011
Publisher: eBook | Hardcover | Audiobook

Jarlath "Jar" Costello's girlfriend, Rosa, committed suicide when they were both students at Cambridge, and Jar has thought about her every day since. It's been five years, yet Jar is still obsessed with the idea that Rosa, the one true love of his life, is alive. He's tormented by visions of her and has disturbingly real sightings of her in unexpected places experiences the psychologist treating him describes as "post-bereavement hallucinations.
When Jar receives a message from Rosa's aunt telling him that she's just found Rosa's diary, he embarks on a frantic quest to finally make sense of the highly suspicious circumstances surrounding her death. But the deeper he digs, the more confused he becomes as he is pressed into a dark underworld where nothing is as it seems and no one can be trusted. When a startling discovery convinces him more than ever that these are not just hallucinations that Rosa really is alive Jar is thrust into the heart of a larger intrigue that may finally shed some light on Rosa's death even as it dangerously threatens his own.

This is not a book for the faint hearted. There are some very gruesome torture methods discussed in detail. The do serve the story so you cannot ignore them either.
The story is filled with mystery and a lot of scary moments. Filled with espionage and secrets it is designed to make you feel uncomfortable.
The story is a bit jumpy though. There are a lot of different point of view. The story is jumping in time. Combined with the Jar his struggle about what is true and false and him not being sure what is real it is easy to feel completely confused and distracted while reading the book. I think for some people this can even be a turn off.
I did like Jar. Though he is very obviously the good guy maybe even close to boring at some times but it was actually very nice to have such a predicable character between all the other characters that were less easy to connect too. It is difficult to say more about the other characters without giving away to much of the story.
The story is captivating and a bit different from other books I read in this genre. As the author did not shy away from giving details you might not want to read which are often disguised in other books. The jumpiness in the story was to much though for it to be a real page turner.